October 9 at 4:35 a.m.

Got up early to let Marley out. Went back to bed....assailed by worries...so am up for now.
Things I am worried about!
Julia.
Ward choir. (And because ward members read this, that is all I am going to say.)
Julia.
Lois Burt - whom I visit teach. What can I do to help her? She has quite a few struggles.
Property taxes. AURGH.
Things that need doing around the home that I can't do myself.
Family History Class.
Julia.
Finding time to practice.
My weight. I am held hostage at my 30 pound loss.
My writing.....at a stand still in that way as well.
Ryan....my "Dr. House-like" son....who is miserable right now and has been for a few years. He will be 25 on October 18. Does he know I love him?

I don't think I am getting 'empty nest' syndrome. I have too much to do. However, last night it felt weird knowing that Julie wasn't coming home and I could lock the door.

I must have faith - everything is in Heavenly Fathers' hands. He knows me and loves me. And he loves Julie and Ryan more than I do.
From the New Testament/Mark: "Lord, I believe. Help thou my unbelief!" (because sometimes.....I just have a small bit of faith!)