Wednesday, August 3rd

I have been feeling pretty sad about this transcription stuff. I have 90 days to finish and I will need at least a month to take the final. So I really have about 60 days to get all the reports done. I had a module exam today and missed 1 with a score of 90%.  I have to get an 85% just to pass the course. The last major test I had, I received a 78% - which the folks at Career Step say is right on for where I am at in the course...but it is not high enough for honors. Pook. Nonetheless, I can see the light at the end of the tunnel and know I am getting close. Began module B tonight.

 I had a really bad day yesterday. When I take the anti-anxiety meds life is pretty good, but I can't write, or I write rarely. When I don't take them I am innundated with ideas, but I get cranky and depressed. AURGH. No middle ground there. I practice more when I don't take them....but Randy says I am a bear.
DOUBLE AURGH.

Graydon might have surgery on Friday. Have to call the clinic tomorrow. Logan Regional is trying to open one more operating room for Dr. Larson. It would be great if Graydon could start to feel better.

Randy, Graydon, and I all went to the Logan Temple today. OOOOH --- the lightning is spectacular outside and the breeze feels divine!

A gnat just flew into my eye! Ew. As soon as this leg calms down, I will turn off the lights and avoid the little buggers~  Hey...that's funny =O)

Well...I should probably go practice and do something productive, instead of being a buffet for bugs.

When I had my prayers this morning.. er... yesterday morning, I asked for help to complete the course, and help to find a job...and expressed gratitude for so many blessings. It seems to help, whether writing them down, or naming them one by one...focusing on the positive helps turn the day around.

Regarding family history: Making splendid progress. I finally broke down and charged 3 months of Ancestry.com so I could get some real information. I found an email address of someone who had a copy of my grandmother's (biological) obituary. Paul sent that yesterday. She sounds like a wonderful person and I would have liked her. Now about Jake S. Louderback...where did he go? Still looking, but found some of his brothers and sisters! I know he will turn up. I am learning patience=O)