Changes

Our Elder is home and now released...back to being Graydon. He is a brave soul. No matter the pain he is patient and pleasant. How does he do it? I am cranky day after day with this crazy tibia. He will have his first surgery August 11. Then after recovery, Dr. Larson will do the left knee. He and Ryan T. are getting back into creative head design for LAX players. Which is good because Graydon needs something to do to keep from going stir-crazy! Taler might come up for his homecoming talk on Sunday. The topic is rescuing lost souls. The Bishop is speaking as well. Graydon has been pondering about it - and catching up on fb and other things. He got to talk to Kevin on Skype. Kevin is in Japan with the Marines. I bet they have lots to catch up on.

Our home teachers came last night. Randy gave me this sweet little homemade baby grand piano and bench for an anniversary gift. (31 years on Sunday!) It is about 10 inches long and 6 inchest wide. It has a little music box inside that plays "Unchained Melody." It is nothing fancy, but I love the fact that he thought about it... (you know?) Anyway our home teachers came and had to tell us about their collectible and very expensive music box that is also in the shape of a baby grand piano and so elegant. For some reason, it made me mad. Can't someone just enjoy something for someone else without the comparisons? AURGH.



I know we don't have a lot of money. We watch families in our area in brand new homes, off to Disneyland, off to a cruise, drive new cars, have amazing cell phones and computers. Do people think we don't notice and they have to point it out to us? AURGH. I know we are rich in the things that count. We feel like Tevye sometimes, "If I were a rich man...." and it is frustrating. I would love my home fixed up, a nice car, a cell phone plan, health insurance, etc. etc. etc. Are things THAT important? Some days. EEESH.

My grandson said that they got Direct TV. He was insistent on pointing out to me that we should get it. But TV is not our priority, and if we had the money it wouldn't go there anyway. AURGH. I owe apologies BIG TIME. Kellye just wrote me and said that Ayden was trying to tell me that because of having Direct TV they can watch "UP" - which is my favorite movie. I didn't hear all of what he was saying. Here I am complaining about judgment and I misjudged. OyVey. I am a sad Grandma.

We have our own little bit of heaven, for however long it lasts. We are still married. We love our kids, even though sometimes we don't like them. We love Heavenly Father. I am so grateful for the gospel in my life. I can easily see where I could have been. And it's scary.

Judgments aside.

I still love my little piano.

Off to study - crazy week, I haven't kept after my class. AURGH. AURGH.