In our new ward, Perry 8th Ward.
- I had so much trepidation regarding going to Church today. I started praying last Monday not for a sign, but that I could feel that the Lord WAS in charge of our Stake and that He approved of all these changes, and this wasn't just men.....doing their own thing.....anyway....I really didn't need a miracle, just a peaceful feeling so I could be brave on Sunday. Well, by Thursday I had determined I would go, even if only to take the Sacrament. But then on Friday two cool things happened to let me know that someone bigger than I was in charge and mindful of me and my feelings. I worry so much about being the most poverty-stricken in any ward, because people have been so cruel to us. Things they probably don't imagine slice away at our hearts and yet come out of their mouths and we are shocked. For example, "What do we need to do to get that husband of yours making a better living so you can have a decent home?" Well, Randy couldn't get work in the field he loves which is hydroponics, so after trying that for a few years he had to go back to construction to feed all the kids. Then a company he worked for who the owner was assocd with the Stake, canceled our health insurance without telling us and started cutting his pay every check until Randy quit. And then as a private contractors, people in our Stake who refused to pay him for work for one reason or another that he just wouldn't prosecute....etc....etc.....etc... Anyway...not to mention the bullying the our kids, etc...etc....etc.....
19:Notice I'm not mentioning names....I've had a difficult time dealing with some of these things...however, the Gospel is still true so I keep coming. I even had a Bishop tell me that my problem was pride...and that I was jealous of what everyone had and not wanting to work myself. Well, I lunged across his desk, grabbed his tie and wanted to choke him right there. I said, "You sure don't know me very well, because IF you knew me, you would know I don't really care about any THINGS, just books and music." I stormed out...He called Randy and said that he needed to get his wife under control. I filled my callings (admirably I admit) in spite of him...never missed a Sunday (didn't go at 8 a.m.?) but never spoke to him again. When he was released HE told the story and apologized in front of the entire congregation. I was so embarrassed.- 19:41OKAY....after all of that. I was still afraid to go today. But we went. We met with Brother Case...(I notice that Bp. Ashcroft missed the kerfluffle, lucky man)....and he called Randy to be Soutmaster. I guess my time is coming.
- 19:44Randy called to be Scoutmaster......There were 10 EQ couples in SS and men in Priesthood. There are just 2 deacons. There are 60 HPs in the ward. What crazy odds. According to Valerie the 8 year olds are just as big now as before the split (9th ward). (The class I mean). So not sure all this moving around really is going to benefit anyone....Michelle Bowden is now the Primary President. Blake Glover is YM Pres again. He is happy Randy is in Scouting. I got a tremendous hug in the hall from Jackson Moss and he had tears in his eyes. He is having a hard time...our lovely boys. We miss them. My father-in-law isn't too happy either. He is fairly close to Randy and wont being seeing him every week, but really he is just a few blocks away!
- 19:45Now....Last few things....Lynn Maddox was called this morning to please put together a Christmas program. She had a full program written and the choir almost had all 8 numbers learned before the split. Now she has 20 women and 2 men singing. And only 3 weeks to pull something off. She is almost 80 and one of Nola Young's best friends. Lynn and Doyle golfed and played with Nola and Grant. Grant sure doesn't look very well, I'm worried about him.
- 19:46Lynn made me promise to go to choir and support her. She and Nola were my first friends here in Perry.My mom is still in Rehab. My sister has been going to see her regularly. I sent flowers but Mom doesn't know who I am now. So the dementia is progressing rather quickly.I'm in the throes of my holiday blues.....so Randy said I needed some Xanax so he could get me through all the gift wrapping, tree trimming, and thanksgiving cooking. Goodness. The thought of it all just makes me want to dig a hole and stick my head in for a couple of months.
- 19:I took Bella to Nursery. Of course Uncle Matt wasn't there...we've been talking about it, but when we got there and she saw people she didn't know and kids she didn't know she became hysterical and cried and cried for Uncle Matt. It was sad. I was going to try and leave her, but there were three other kids all crying and noone seemingly knowing what to do. I scooped up all four kids in my lap and told them I would stay there with them and everything would be okay...and then I started playing dinosaurs with them. I got to be the Velociraptor which was a nice change because Bella likes to eat me when I am a plant eater =O). It was a long day. And one little boy kept trying to drive his car under my skirt. Goodness. I came home tired, but couldn't rest as I had a ton of Dr. Rasmussen that I needed to finish up from Friday. I worked Saturday too, but the clinic MT department was a little behind. I'm finally caught up with my end just in time for Monday morning =O).
- 19:52So, all is well at the Bradbury house. I went to see Lois and tell her the news. Bella was my partner. I don't think Lois will let anyone in as VT. Grant has been their HT for about 40 years? They won't let anyone else come. Anyway, we took Lois some yellow flowers because yellow is her favorite colors.
- 19:54In other news, my hens will be laying soon. They are full grown and I'm watching for their crowns to turn red and then eggs! I noticed my larges are larger than Walmarts Jumbos. An 18 pack is almost $4 at Walmart. I sell mine for $2.00 a doz. just enough to make feed. Anyway..that's my epistle for today. Next Sunday is another day and Sister Ashcroft is the Nursery leader and will be back and in charge. Of course, that is no guarantee Bella will go yet without me. Randy said the RS room for Gospel Doctrine was totally packed and he couldn't find a seat! So I guess Nursery with cars up my skirt is better than a hot room with no chair =O)
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