June 8, 2015.
So much to write about.
My adopted sister, Katie called me a while ago and wanted to come and visit. She is three years younger than I am and seems to have her life a lot more controlled. She is funny, smart, and a hard worker. She has a splendid vocabulary and so loyal to her friends, loves, and family. So in a lot of ways she is "better than I am" and I don't feel badly about that. We went to Park City. We went to Ogden and Logan. We went to Chesterfield. We volunteered at the OFOAM Festival in Ogden at Ft. Buenaventura. I lost my glasses. She had to drive. I was so upset. Then she found my glasses and that followed with a hysterical giggle attack at all the relief. Randy gave her a bascic marksmanship class and boy was she ever a winner. My word! It was fun to have her for a little while. I bet she was glad to get home, but she took it all in stride. Marley loves her. Bella loves her and misses her.
Now this week, still catching up on laundry and cleaning....I sat down to play the piano and realized I could barely play. Have lost a lot of facility. Of course with Bella here I have not been able to organize my time to get 1.5 to 2 hours per day. I'm not blaming here. I don't want help. I just have to figure out how to get my time in. I'm very sad and feeling like a loser since I cannot play any better right now. I need to have music somewhere in my life. I knew I wasn't going to make it extremely far in the music learned department, but I hate to lose what I've already worked so hard for. If I'm going to teach I have to keep working at it. I feel very desolate and 'why should I even try?' right now. It's almost a pity party, but without icecream.
I know Bella is important. So is laundry, family, meals, Sunday lessons, preparing for piano students, spiritual growth, and playing at the temple. However, It is difficult to do it all. And it seems the older I get, the less I can get done.
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